At the beginning of the year, I set a goal to blog every month. I had a burst of energy last month so I decided to curate all of the music playlists I had planned, format the posts and schedule them. So, I officially have enough content to account for every month. I'm so proud of myself! However, when it came to all of my lifestyle ideas I had planned...I hated every one, or they weren't attainable just yet.
I had some travel posts planned, but my bank account humbled me lmao. So, until I can afford those trips, I feel stuck on what to write. I know I want to create, I just feel blocked.
I'm a spiritual and religious person, more spiritual than the latter though. Before I start streaming church on Sunday morning, I meditate. I smudge my space with palo santo and sage during the new moon. I release bad habits I've developed during the full moon. Yes, I'm one of "those people." Anyway, my point is no matter how I feel I always go to God, and then I check my spirit. So last week, as I remembered I wanted to write another post for this month, I was anxious and frustrated. My heart kept pounding and I was struggling to control my breath.
I journaled and meditated, and that helped for only like five minutes. At this point, I'm trying to remember what my day was like. It was fine. So, I decided to check my chakras to see where I'm unbalanced spiritually. It turned out that my root and solar plexus chakras were under active. This means that I was doubting myself too much and lacking control over myself and my life. Therefore, I was stifling my creativity. The lightbulb went off in my head, and I also thought about the sermon I watched last Sunday from Sarah Jakes Roberts.
Sarah preached about being in a tight spot, learning how to persevere, while also recognizing that God is there with us. This year, I've been grieving loved ones, moving, trying to secure my professional life and I also dealt with heartbreak and betrayal. It has been a lot, seriously. The only reason I have not let any of it break me is because I have been taking care of myself and knowing that God is building me into the person I have always prayed to be. I am in a tight spot right now, but I have not let go of my faith. I have not given up on myself and I do whatever I can to take care of what I can control. I exercise in this tight spot. I eat as well as I can in this tight spot. I read my Bible in this tight spot. I seek counseling in this tight spot. I listen to music, recognize sounds and curate playlists based off my own interests. I then use this platform, format the content and post it all on social media. So, yes, that takes creativity! My lifestyle content will grow as soon as I come out of this tight spot. Until then, I have music and that's what makes me a creative. My many layers keep me active and sharp even when I struggle in other areas. And for that, I'm so proud of myself. I really am that girl and it's ok for me to realize that and make it known.
I can't wait to show you all what I have planned for the rest of the year and 2020. 🧡
Thanks for reading! See you in two weeks.
Read or Weep,
I think the first time I heard West Coast music was in the car with my mom. She drove an Infiniti Q45 and I'll never forget learning all the classics in that car. In 1996, Tupac dropped "How Do U Want It" and my mama had to keep me from humming it, along with Toni Braxton's "You're Makin' Me High". I loveeee all the OG West Coast rappers and I'm sure this playlist will take you back to the good days, because there was nothing like the '90s.
Thank for tuning in! See you in 2 weeks.
Listen or Weep,