At the beginning of the year, I set a goal to blog every month. I had a burst of energy last month so I decided to curate all of the music playlists I had planned, format the posts and schedule them. So, I officially have enough content to account for every month. I'm so proud of myself! However, when it came to all of my lifestyle ideas I had planned...I hated every one, or they weren't attainable just yet.
I had some travel posts planned, but my bank account humbled me lmao. So, until I can afford those trips, I feel stuck on what to write. I know I want to create, I just feel blocked.
I'm a spiritual and religious person, more spiritual than the latter though. Before I start streaming church on Sunday morning, I meditate. I smudge my space with palo santo and sage during the new moon. I release bad habits I've developed during the full moon. Yes, I'm one of "those people." Anyway, my point is no matter how I feel I always go to God, and then I check my spirit. So last week, as I remembered I wanted to write another post for this month, I was anxious and frustrated. My heart kept pounding and I was struggling to control my breath.
I journaled and meditated, and that helped for only like five minutes. At this point, I'm trying to remember what my day was like. It was fine. So, I decided to check my chakras to see where I'm unbalanced spiritually. It turned out that my root and solar plexus chakras were under active. This means that I was doubting myself too much and lacking control over myself and my life. Therefore, I was stifling my creativity. The lightbulb went off in my head, and I also thought about the sermon I watched last Sunday from Sarah Jakes Roberts.
Sarah preached about being in a tight spot, learning how to persevere, while also recognizing that God is there with us. This year, I've been grieving loved ones, moving, trying to secure my professional life and I also dealt with heartbreak and betrayal. It has been a lot, seriously. The only reason I have not let any of it break me is because I have been taking care of myself and knowing that God is building me into the person I have always prayed to be. I am in a tight spot right now, but I have not let go of my faith. I have not given up on myself and I do whatever I can to take care of what I can control. I exercise in this tight spot. I eat as well as I can in this tight spot. I read my Bible in this tight spot. I seek counseling in this tight spot. I listen to music, recognize sounds and curate playlists based off my own interests. I then use this platform, format the content and post it all on social media. So, yes, that takes creativity! My lifestyle content will grow as soon as I come out of this tight spot. Until then, I have music and that's what makes me a creative. My many layers keep me active and sharp even when I struggle in other areas. And for that, I'm so proud of myself. I really am that girl and it's ok for me to realize that and make it known.
I can't wait to show you all what I have planned for the rest of the year and 2020. 🧡
Thanks for reading! See you in two weeks.
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